Here I am once again... totally in a confused state of mind as to what priority I should give to different things in my life at this point of time. My health, my job or my family.
I am standing at that junction of life, where I see 3 paths. One leads to my career, lookout for a new job etc, second one leads to my health, as i have to urgently reduce some 10-12Kg of my body weight, as I am over weight now ( I like to blame it on my hypothyroidism and diabetes, but I know it not just that). Controlling diet and doing exercises are just what it takes, but.. you know... And the third one leads to my family, adding a member to our family. My daughter is 3 yrs old now, n I myself am 29, so i feel its not a good thing to postpone it - thinking about this also needs the path 2, cos I cant go ahead without reducing my weight...
Sigh! Doesn't seem to be a big task here, or confusing this right? But, it is, for me. I have been working from home for the past 4 yrs, which made me out of touch with many technologies in the field I work (but i do know many technologies, which others hardly know about). But I am not confident in giving interviews :| which makes me sound like a tensed school going kid, who is scared about exams. But believe me, this is not a good feeling. Having 8.5 yrs experience in what I do, and still not confident enough for an interview.
I've been praying a lot these days, cos I am not able to understand what i should do first... will continue doing that till i get answers...
God, hear me and answer me please...
So, like I wrote earlier, I was more into Twitter for the last year or so. Met a lot of people there, both men & women. Some turned out to be too good, while some, made me angry n desperate. But I am glad that I was able to meet them. Made me realize who I really am, and what people think about me, and what I want for myself...
I realized that - I am happy, I will be happy, cos I deserve to be happy - cos I am the best, and I will be the best... come what may... I kept on telling myself this, and I realized that i was becoming more and more happy...
Talking about the people I met in Twitter, I met some people, who had created a group in Twitter names AMIT - Association of Malayalam Idivettu Tweeters - they wrote hilarious Malayalam tweets. Their tweets never failed to make me laugh. Got a few good/close friends too from AMIT, though one of them created lot of unwanted scenes later on, leading to many people going against him - that's another story.
I found an extended family there in twitter - lil brothers and sisters and friends... most of those I met there were younger to me. I got a nickname 'Amoontamma' meaning Ammu's mother - Ammu being my daughter.
It was fun altogether, but later I realized that it was taking up too much of my time - my work was getting affected - i was kind of addicted. Anyways, I have taken a break as of now. I am still in touch with those friends through chat or calls... that's life.. when you realize that you are left alone, God gives you many more to give you company! :)
So, here I am. Back into the blogging world. Yes, this time, its really for real! :) Trust me!
I got too busy tweeting, ( Twitter is a micro blogging site too), so i thought its easier to micro blog my thoughts than actually blogging those. Actually, i got lazy to blog, when i can easily micro blog!
And Yesterday, I quit Twitter. And I feel really happy that I did. Cos it was eating up a lot of my time n energy. It was draining me out emotionally too, cos i was getting attached to people I met there. But now, My mins feels free. I do have good friends from there, with whom i can keep in touch through calls & chat or emails.
So, I hope I'll be here more often. I want to write a lot, write about lots of things, lots of positive things cos I am tired of being negative n being sad all these years.. God has blessed me a lot, n its high time i accept it and let people know, n try to make a difference in their lives too!
All the best to myself! and to those who read these!
